Whatsapp Chat with Praveen's Father

I don't know whether I am feeling a positive response after his chat.

All I know is Praveen's father is not happy to involve in this issue and that Praveen made a very bad picture about me to his father as he used to do with everybody,

Basically Praveen is making me feel bad before others dont know for why!!!

What is the reason for all this. He just wants to make his space in others mind by making me a fool before others.

All my fate. Praveen never loved me instead used me for all his personal needs.

How Am I going to survive!

Praveen left to Kodugalloor with Lekshmi

This morning by 6:00Am Praveen left to Kodugalloor. He said he is going with Suresh chettan (the person from Ludiana) and Driver Vijayan.

But the fact is he went with Lekshmi. This morning he picked her from home and went to Kodugalloor.

I was known about this. So I called him and asked whether she is with him as soon as I asked Praveen became violent and started shouting at me.

I asked him to give me a video call. Praveen didn't do that he said it's not necessary to let me know if I dont trust him. The thing is she is with him that's why Praveen doesn't want to give me the call.

I sent a Whatsapp message to Praveen's father informing about his trip with Lekshmi.

I made the call to Udaya Chechi (lekshmi's sister) and Gopan Chettan (Udaya chechi's husband) and I came to know that they are also well aware of this illegal relationship.

It seems Lekshmi and Lekshmi's parents are very strong with their relationship with Praveen for money.

Again Praveen called me and said many things.

1. He said I am not mentally stable and that I am happy for 5 days and not happy for the next 5 days

2. I always question him about his relationship with his friends.
Let me explain this
a. After his drinking habit stopped he used to go to his friend Umesh's office and used to spend time there. He always does all kinds of service to his friend. I found it very odd because he is having no job and doing free service to Umesh. I felt why would someone be freely available and service friends.
I told him to find a job and earn at least to pay the house rent.
He is saying this as a major default of mine

b. Relationship with his school friend Veena. After a lot of chaos with Umesh servicing, he found a new person named Veena. She being his school friend and now a divorcee Praveen used that opportunity for the sake of consoling her and started servicing her. He used to accompany her in all her needs. She is a singer so Praveen started taking her all the programs and showing over freedom towards her in front of others. I felt very odd. Society started murmuring as if Praveen is the new pair of Veena.
Me too didnt like him always planning for her programs and being with her till late night. He also talks to her over phone for hours.
When I started complaining that again became a big problem for Praveen

c. Then comes this girl Lekshmi. He started being with her. He started spending money for this girl. Taking her to gym, swimming, restaurant, shopping, even to beauty parlour.
Being a wife how can I accept this.
Moreover, Lekshmi always touches Praveen's body. She always hugs him and kisses him which I am so angry.

3. Praveen says I always quarrel with him when he goes out. Frankly, I always feel very lonely when Praveen leaves me alone here. Out of my love and affection, I always ask him when he will return. He thinks I am pestering him. If he goes for a job then I am ok but Praveen goes for the sake of others leaving me alone not even caring how I will be here alone. He is least bothered about my security or my needs.

Basically, Praveen said he is tolerating me for the sake of the kids and that he dont love me. For him, I am a pain. He doesn't want to say 'Suji just leave me' because he knows I will catch that word. So he is making me say that.

Praveen said the only person that he should convince is his father and that all others are of no concern for him.

I still dont understand what that means.

I am so tired!!!!
I dont know why Praveen is doing this. Why he is lying?
Why he is so crazy about that girl!!!

God only knows!

Tagging Praveen in Afsal Sister's Marriage

Last day I got Afsal Sister's marriage photo with Praveen and Lekshmi.

As soon as I saw the picture I tagged Praveen so that he might know that I came to know about his trip to Chadamangalam with Lekshmi and Family,

Praveen reached home very late and meantime I slept. He might have definitely received the notification of me tagging him in the picture on Facebook. But he showed no response.

In the morning he behaved as if he is the perfect gentleman in the whole world. I too didn't make a notice on his behavioral pattern.

He went out to leave the car for servicing and came back with food.

The evening he said he is going to Balaramapuram for the mundu business purpose.

God only knows the truth behind his words. I am tired of hunting the truth and where he goes. Because when I come to know he is in Lekshmi's house I feel very bad.

I sent the picture to Praveen's marriage via email and whatsapp to Praveen's father. It seems he blocked me in whatsapp and phone so that I don't call him anymore. After all, he is Praveen's father definitely has genetic traits!!!

Well, commenting on the picture I feel very bad. The loser behind the whole scene is Praveen.
Lekshmi and the family are utilizing Praveen for the car and expense. Praveen lost his whole family and behaving like a fool before them. They are very cunning and making full use of Praveen.

I dont understand why Praveen is unable to understand this. I am very sure he is keen on the sexual relationship with Lekshmi. He enjoys her companionship by all means. I still see naked video calls of Lekshmi to Praveen. Feeling very bad though but nothing can be done!

My State of Mind

I always loved Praveen wholeheartedly.

I really wish if I could live with my kids and Praveen till my last breathe

But he is going away from me. He is no more affectionate. He pretends and tries to find what
I am doing so that he can escape.

He is insulting me and my family. I am so sick thinking about him

Not sure whether everything will be alright. Only God can help me.

If there is something that could take my life off I would definitely give that to my kids and eat myself and end my life.

I am so happy to see Praveen happy!

I really wish him to marry that girl and lead a happy life.
My eyes can't see that and so do my kids so please god find a way so that we could end of lives before everything goes wrong!

Caught Praveen in his Computer

Almost a year after Lakshmi's marriage I happened to open Praveen's computer and found their photos and messages. Frankly, I was totally out of control!!!!!

I quarreled and quarreled begged for Praveen's love for me and not to her.
But Praveen never wants to leave that relationship.

He promised me that he will never call her and will never go to her house.

But I tracked Praveen's phone and found her calls. Again made a big scene to find the truth. Praveen never wanted to leave her.

Still, he is very strong with her.

I talked to Ajith's family to see what really is happened. Shockingly I found many things.

1. Praveen is doing business for her
2. He is spending money on all the expense of her family
3, He is taking care of her studies
4. They always have a tour together
5. Praveen used to stay with her
6. He used to buy clothes, shoes, etc for her
7. Brought some gold jewelry
and many many things.

Frankly, I am totally dead.

Why Praveen is doing this !!!

I heard Praveen had been recording all my calls and whatever I said about others he recorded and shown them to the same person and made a very bad remark about me.

All Praveen wants is to picture me as a bad person before others and that I should be left unsupported so that if anything happens he can say that 'ITS ALL BECAUSE SUJI NEVER GAVE ME PEACE OF MIND'

that's Praveen's trick. He is trying to trap me and close my mouth for his relationship

I really dont understand what he is heading to.
whether he wants to marry her or maintain this illegal relationship

Not sure why he is doing all these things.

Very suspicious.

All I know is I am totally upset and things are going beyond my control. I am afraid whether he will put me in some mental asylum or divorce me!

Chadayamangalam Afsal Sister's Marriage

The story continues with Lekshmi!!!

On Friday 14th Feb, 2020 Praveen took us for the movie Ayyapanum Koshyum for the night show.
Before we left home he mentioned about the marriage on 15th Feb, 2020 which I didnt take it seriously. He said its the marriage of one of the Karamana Police Officers daughter and he need to take a few Union people to attend the marriage.

On the way back home, Praveen mentioned about the marriage with great excitement. On reaching home again he called someone named shiju and mentioned about the morning trip. The call was very suspicious it was not in a normal tone and it sounded as if he is fooling me and talking to Lekshmi. I overheard the other voice asking about the dress for the marriage which confirmed to me that it was Lekshmi. Praveen was going with her to attend the marriage. Chadayamangalam being far, Lekshmi and family thought of soaping Praveen for the car and the expense.

Praveen being a fool and crazy about Lekshmi's companionship was ready for the trip!!!

I suddenly thought of the idea and said I am also coming for the marriage, Praveen got the shock and said ok. I was very much sure he won't take me for the marriage.

In the morning he got up early and said he is going to Pravachambalam and he will attend the marriage. He also shouted and said he is not taking me.

His explanation was like this.
"You can change your words often and I am not like you. I promised Union men to take them with me and I have to. They will be drunk and it will not be good if you come"

Suddenly I said I know you are taking Lekshmi thats why you are not taking me with you.

He again shouted and said, yes Lakshmi and family will be there but it doesn't mean I am going with them.

I felt very bad and started crying, I know Praveen is going with them. I went in back of him took an auto and found Praveen picking them.

Nothing can be done. He left home by 8:15am and came back home by 5:00pm. I didn't say anything,

I was known one day someone will definitely post the picture and today I got it. Its Afzal's sister's marriage and Praveen with his keep family Lekshmi attended the marriage!!!

I am not sure whom to blame and what to say. All I know is I am not in Praveen's mind. He is filled with Lekshmi and her gimmicks.

He is having a very bad relationship with her and enjoying it for the meantime!!!

Not sure how long this will go and what will be my life.

Suji's Life on 14th Feb, 2020

I am terribly worried, the reason being many. Not sure where to start. The morning started with my regular work. My husband Praveen was in Mavelikkara (from his words). He did send me a valentine's day wish by 6.35am which I missed due to school preparation. Today was Uttara's model exam. After I left her to school, I went to Pooja room did my prayers and went to the nearby temple. Then I checked my mobile and saw his message. I was overwhelmed to see his wish and with all my love I did send a picture and a wish.

Well, I will explain why I said my heart bleeds later. Whatever, the conversation doesn't turn to be good smoothing one. That's why I felt. Within minutes I saw him updating his status with our same photo and our pair ones. I didn't comment on anything as I am afraid again it may end up in another quarrel. Yes, it's been 4.5years that we are quarreling in the name of a girl named 'Lekshmi'
 In my eyes, she is not a good girl. Always nagging behind Praveen. She hugs him kisses him goes for a drive etc etc. Praveen also loves to buy things for her, always in her home and does everything for her without my knowledge.
 Check about this girl and husband's relationship with her in my next article.

Lekshmi My Hatred

This girl entered my life about 4.5 years before.

She was good looking and smart and about 23 years old.

Praveen was really fascinated by her smartness and jovial nature. Initially, she behaved equally to both of us.

As days went I found her getting close to Praveen. She started going out with him, hugging him, kissing him and leaning after him. Praveen made a story of the sister-brother relationship and strongly argued with the same whenever I started criticizing her behavior.

There had been many quarrels in my house Praveen beat me!
I called his friends and dear ones to help me and make Praveen understand that the relationship is not good.

I even mentioned him to maintain a distance and not make the public make stories about their behavior. But Praveen never heard. He loved being in her company. He started going to her house. He spends lots of time at her house. Whenever I made a comment he used to create a scene and make me yell at him. He used that as an opportunity to stay away from me and be in her company.

I must say that loudly, HE MADE THINGS SUCH A WAY SO THAT HE CAN BE IN HER HOME.

He never liked me commenting about her. Things started going away from my hands. I really prayed God if Praveen could quit that relationship and be with me as earlier. But I failed. I lost Praveen completely!

Lekshmi Marriage

One boy came and gave a feeble light in my life. A good person very innocent and from a well to do family - Ajith!

He falls in love with this girl.

I thanked God for the relationship even though it is painful that the boy will lose his life because of this girl.
My outspoken words did tell Ajith that Lekshmi is not a good girl and he can't handle it. But his love for that girl wanted him to marry her.

Praveen also felt happy and the marriage happened.

I felt so happy that the girl left us and she won't be a problem in my life!

But things were even worse than what I thought

I lost 6 lakhs of pledged gold.
Not sure whether Praveen borrowed money for her marriage
Saw many pictures of Praveen and her doing extreme shopping
and to the most vulnerable one

I found some naked pictures of Lekshmi taken be Praveen which he saved for himself!!

Shocking!!!! my mind went on making scenes of what might have happened when a man takes naked pictures of a girl!!

Lekshmi's family gave all sorts of freedom for Praveen to stay alone with her. To be frank, lekshmi's mother is not a good lady she always traps men in her home shows her girl and strips them completely for money.

The same happened with Praveen.

After Lekshmi marriage

After all those losses I truely felt the chapter is closed and I begged Praveen a promise that he will never turn around to that family.

She is safe and that he has nothing to with her.

Again Praveen didn't stay with me. He made lots of fake promises and still had a relationship with the family.

Meanwhile,Praveen's father was building a house for us which I really dont want to enter. Sorry again he was another threaten in my life.

Our life was miserable talking about this house. Praveen used that as an opportunity to be in Lekshmi;s house. He started staying in her house as well as Ajith's house. Secretly he enjoyed her companionship.

Ajith's family found totally fishy about their relationship always hugging kissing and being together in rooms etc etc. These were not at all known to me.